We are never trapped, just fated to faulty perspective, succumb to specious perception; it’s all relevant, related –
one more rock-move away from the light on the other side of the avalanche,
one more “wrong” turn lost in the forest before hearing the anabranch…
much is necessarily experienced:
near suffocation sometimes the only way to motivate a life-saving change,
the legs of the journey in the humanless woods lead to the reflection and feeling of wounds,
and all paths probably have purpose among the universe’s higher powers.
Without the lonely, looping trails, we could not emerge anew with our truest selves
and others we met along the way not-so-coincidentally placed.
We are never trapped. We are never lost. At least not for very long.
No change was ever ignited without the spark. So many opportunities missed, passed up, though after being gifted matchsticks but still refusing to start the fire.
Barefoot atop the deep waters, white dress and wild tresses flowing, sunken-ship cemetery of the past beneath, I twirl in this present moment.
The sea is mine as my dance floor, and I skim across to my pick of shores; I explore, I vacation, not searching, just jubilation of losing worries and fears, exaltation of the lightness of the lifting of those stormy years, each moment an eternity to get to the next, each stepping stone sinking with each vine grasped, no beanstalk discovered to bring me to the clouds, only faith each day for decades of a better tomorrow.
That tomorrow is today,
hence the head-raised dance in the sun and in the rain, embracing with wide-opened arms the achievement of having started upon this horizon I only viewed from the beach.
The stepping stones still sink. I just realized the only missing factor was to fully
believe.
They were never needed. Self-love was the only key.
I was always worth it. Eventually, I fought for me and this dream.
Trust in the shadows; they are benevolent too, dimming the wrong ways so the beacon may shine through.
Listen for the truth; it whispers faithfully through the gale. Turn your back to the blustery lies; the bitterest of winds best fill the sails.
You don’t need a map for an evacuation route; just follow the signs He’s already laid out.
He knows all, including what’s up ahead. Listen for The Light; drown out the ghost voices haunting your head.
You took the steps. You left that land. These turbulent waters will lead to the end
of that decades-long storm that shredded every kite you raised that lightning struck on its way down to reiterate that you will never be freed from this fate.
But fate was a falsity and now you will know that destiny is all within your control,
and He wants you to have all your heart desires. He will lead you there through these uncharted waters,
but He wants your hands on the tiller to feel the power you have that He instills.
He calls upon the winds and every fin in the sea to escort you on your voyage to your chosen dreams.
Times are changing, the earth keeps rotating, seasons arrive and depart… Change is always hard on my heart.
No shadow now joined to my hip. Gradual independence. Children grow up and detach. How can we know which kiss may be the last?
Years unravelled from finite twine; at the end, the kites will fly. If Father Time were to grant my wish, which moments would I revisit?
The sands keep slipping; no way to flip it. How should I spend this day? What memories can I make to leave my family as legacy to have, to hold, to keep as the distance continues to grow and life leads us down different roads?
Tomorrow is never promised, another sunset never guaranteed. Priorities must be organized so nothing overshadows the people.
This moment may be all we have, so when I reach for your hand, let me draw you nearer. Come sit for a while and talk with me, dear.