Not a beanstalk, but it might as well be, magic seeds sprouting the way to giant dreams, and in the center, a sunbeam passes through a hole in a leaf purposefully to reach me, or is it simply that light is at the center of all belief?
Insignificant the manmade pier seems, foolishly leading horizontally…Â
Sometimes, I prefer the blur, the softness, of out of focus, where it all becomes muted and fuses with the natural horizon, and even my femininity, graceful and soft-spoken, has a voice among the hushes, my lyrics freed but the language not audible or of this world, for it is my soul who recognizes this celestial light befalling before the sun bids us adieu, never resting, only sharing itself with others too, as this speck of a planet shifts, and upon this ray, I lay this kiss to be sweetly delivered to you.
A detour, soulful tugging, I find myself impulsively knelt again on the white sands before the altar at an end of the earth, surf symphony rising predictably to greet me, but I casually look about for the signs He wanted me to again come ’round… between my toes ancient mountains ground to grains, quartz granules, sugar-soft, appropriate backdrop for the hieroglyph written for me: it freezes me.
So easily, I succumb to the enchantment of silence, save for those waves and occasional sea birds with personal messages calling. (It always baffles me how I can so often have this parcel of paradise to myself…) I stay a long, unhurried while just trying to feel what this enigmatic swirl of sea oat in the sand is all about… Something about curves is always so sensuous, aesthetically strokes my soul… I don’t need a translation; in fact, I prefer this sacredly-carved symbol. I make it my own and add it to my collection of clues leading me leisurely home. It is the journey after all, and I have nowhere else to go.
Yellow petals slowly unfurl with inner bravery, but the natural gravity to feel encourages the lean. We all need. We all long for a touch. Even the warmth of a ray from the faraway sun: it assures if we open up, raise our faces to receive, even long-distance affection can be brushed against our cheeks. Bloom to bloom, bloom to stalk, bloom to jagged, sharp edges: it is all love.
Moments drip drop, first molecules floating to fall, and when the basin is filled, our time is up.
Let me taste each one individually upon my upturned mouth.
May I spend the least amount in flood or drought, paned, sheltered or drowned.
Let me feel it all though; to offer an umbrella or call me inside is to deny me each elixir dose to my soul’s life.
Moments shared with others, even fleeting in passing, make up the ocean of emotion that fills and propels me most deeply.
When the last sun sets, I know I cannot take any drops with even though they became a part of my very composition, but heaven is in the clouds for a reason, and I believe from these drops within, another birthing will begin…
If I have to have walls, give me windows big and bright where shadows can dance for hours with the light, windows that open wide to invite the breezes inside. In all mental-health seasons, I so easily slip away for days, lose myself in those sunny sills and rainy panes, faraway thoughts that need not be sorted nor restrained; even my muses need a holiday. The spaces inside my dwelling fade in comparison to the glass and screens I need for my soul to not suffocate. If I have to have walls, give me windows through which to endlessly escape.
shifting sands grains unable to be grasped slipping through fingers sieve of my existence footprints vanishing in vain trying to leave an imprint, fingerprints fossilizing
as I watch sea drops dry on shells shells of mankind displayed non-selves on shelves
shifting painted shapes offer to take me away only to lead to the next drifting cumulous cloud lateral when I need to be higher homeward bound
shifting sands I open my hand spread my fingers wider I know what the answers are not to feel the silk is to feel nothing caught but sensory strokes the void in the curve of my palm no trail found to my entrance into the sea
saltwater can’t sting when the wounds are too far beneath the body’s surface
arms open I invite the above in home- sick let me know I am not